EDITING TO ADD MY PAYPAL EMAIL: firstname.lastname@example.org
and also to add my new Etsy shop, if making a purchase is something you'd consider doing to help http://www.etsy.com/shop/EarringsNMoreByJudy
Please help if you can!! Crunch time is almost here
I feel awful to even be doing this. Crying out to complete strangers on the internet for help. I don't know what else to do, tho. I have been trying and trying to keep the situation my roommate and I are in from getting unmanageable, but it is now to that point. Someone on a forum I am a member of told me about this place, so here I am.
The story in a nutshell: My roommate got fired from his job about three months ago, and struggled to find work. He applied for unemplyment, but because of an error he made when filing he had to do an appeal and they still have not approved it. So he has had ZERO income all this time. He finally did just start a job, but he is currently in unpaid training (it is an independant contractor position) and will not start working for a time yet, and then has to wait to get the first paycheck--you know the drill. I do not make enough money to cover all of the bills (that's why I have a roommate!). I actually barely make enough to cover rent and a little bit more when I am doing well at work. I covered rent alone last month, and I paid the cut-off notice electric bill, and bought a little food. And of course, in the meantime, bills keep coming. I let my cellphone go. I let everything I could cut out go. At the beginning of this month I gave all of my paycheck towards rent, but we were still short. I asked to pay the balance with my next check. That was all I could do. That made me flat broke. We are living on eggs, rice, and beans. I am looking into food banks, community help, etc etc etc. So far not much help there. Families with kids take priority on everything (which I do understand). We have to keep the power and the internet on or my roommates new source of upcoming income will be lost to him, and the little bit of money I have been scraping in from working odd job things over the internet will be gone.
I have struggled under the weight of this money stress, and have been having issues with my own job because of it. (My job is a type of sales, and if I do not perform well I make no money. Under a lot of stress, I tend to not perform well. I also suffer from migraines which keep me from working at all when they are bad--and which stress is a trigger for.) The paycheck I just received today, I WAS thinking I was going to be able to pay the balance of our late October rent with it. Well, it was MUCH smaller than I had hoped (I did much more poorly than I realized!) and we are $77 short on rent that is already late and that I promised to finish paying by Friday (10/12). My next paycheck two weeks from now will be even worse and I have been performing so badly the last few weeks that I have basically had my hours cut to nil (firing me without firing me). So, at THE worst possible time, my income legs just got cut out from under me. I am applying to new jobs (and I am desperate enough to be going to some fast food restaurants tomorrow to beg for hopefully immediate work)--but the whole waiting for a first paycheck problem rears it's head again. I have beeged companies we owe money to to give us more time, but as it stands, most of the put-off bills are going to get to crisis point in the next one to three weeks. The rent being $77 short is the first domino in what is about to be a really ugly trainwreck if I cannot find a way to get some money FAST.
So here I am, putting up my sad sob story on the internet. You don't know me. I don't know why you should care. I don't know if there is any help to be had. I am just really really terrified of losing the roof over my head. I have been there before and it is NOT a fun place to be, and it took me sooo long to dig and claw my way back to having things back to "normal". I don't think I could make it back again if I wind up homeless. I moved in with a roommate thinking that I was better off than trying to make it alone. I really just need us to make it through the next few weeks! I know we can pull out of this tailspin once his paychecks start coming. The problem is that the bills that are coming can't be put off any more at all. I have begged for all the time we are going to get. If we don't find a way to pay them, then things get shut off, eviction notices get sent, etc etc etc.
I have no more words. I am desperate. Please help if you can. Please pray/send good thoughts if you can't help any other way. I am so scared right now. We just need a boost to get back on our feet. Please.